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Lately my new supervisor has been talking about all the negativity that goes on at my job. She really wants to change that. She wants us to be able to enjoy our work again. She says all of this and it's all well and good, but it seems pointless when she promotes someone who is as negative as they come. The girl does great work, but flips without notice.

The new back up lead runs hot and hot. If she's in a bad mood everyone watch out. It's so bad that people have given her bad side a name. The good side is Trish and the negative side is Patty. We talk about being so afraid of Patty.

Plus this woman is the type who thinks that she can do no wrong, argumentative, can be hostile, two-faced, and the list can go on and on and on. Each shift that she has been on has cheered when she left. In my opinion that is not a good sign, but heck I'm being negative by doubting someone's choice.

I pretty much told the Team Lead who has been there for a while that I'm not working under that under Lead. I even asked her if I could use her as reference. I've been in that department for almost 3 years. I feel that it's time to move on. If I stayed in that same department I would never move up. I would be stuck in the same position and I can't deal with that.

I hope everyone else is having a great day :).

Well, I have been lazy once again with updating my journal. At least this time it didn't take months to update.

After waiting a while for my results from some test I had one I finally got results. They happily told me that I don't have Cancer. I had no clue that they were even testing for that, but I thank my lucky stars that I don't have it.

I have Hyper-Thyroid disease and Goiter disease. They still don't know if they should give me medicine or just go on and take my thyroid gland out. I seriously think that they're going to lean towards surgery. My mom had the same surgery so it really doesn't surprise me that I'm going through the same thing. First I thought it would skip over me since my sister never had it. I figured that it was something that skipped over a generation or something like that.

Why is it if you have something wrong with you another person tries to out do you? I was telling someone I may have to have surgery and they are all like, " Having children is harder. Don't complain until you have children." WTF!!! I'm going to have to have my throat sliced open.

Just don't understand folks. I am very happy that it's nothing too serious. I mean it could be worse or something, but its all going to be okies.

Today has been quite crazy. And a bit nerve racking. I went to the hospital today to get some X-rays done and I thought I'd get in and out fast. No! I sat there in the waiting area for about 30 minutes, then they made me take a pill and told me to go home, but I had to come back in 6 hours. The pill is suppose to make the parts of my body that they want to X-ray radio-active. That way they can see my Thyroid gland better.

The 6 hours will be up in an 1 and a half. Tomorrow I have to go up there again for more X-rays. I think the most annoying part is that I couldn't drink or eat anything from last night until noon today. Food wasn't really my main concern, but it was liquids. Oh how I love juice!!! I could live off of juice hehe

I really hope that the test results come back very soon. It sucks having to wait and I'm really tired of all of this waiting.

The cool side is that I still have a sense of humor. I've been telling my family that I shouldn't go near microwaves because I don't want to become like The Hulk. And telling them, " You wouldn't like me when I'm angry." LOL.

Hey everyone!!!

Sorry that I haven't posted in this thing in a while. I've been sick and haven't been feeling all too well. I think this maybe the first time I've really told anyone what has been going on.

Okay, my thyroid gland hasn't been doing so well lately. Some people have a hypo thyroid problem and others have hyper. I happen to be both and it's really messing with my body. A lot of times I hardly have any strength. I have so much trouble doing things and it really drains me. Another down side to the whole thing is that they say that my brain and my thyroid gland are not communicating with each other. My brain says my thyroid isn't putting enough of the hormone out and my thyroid is saying it's putting too much out.

They want to run more test and do x-rays and that kind of stuff. So until they figure something out I'll probably just continue to be drained. Too bad I have to work. Sometimes at work I just want to fall asleep or something like that.

On another note I found out that I'm allergic to the elastic in certain types of socks. This is just total bull crap.

I am trying to keep my head up and smile. I mean the worst thing that could happen is having the gland removed. My mother had hers removed so I mean I shouldn't be surprised that mine is messed up.

Well, I hope that everyone is doing good and having tons of fun. Please be good and take care of yourselves :)

On friday October 6, 2006 one of my friends had to have a procedure done that would cause her to have a miscarriage. We had planned to go to a friend's wedding for weeks and I told my friend that if she didn't want to go to the wedding that would be okay, but she said she wanted to go.

Saturday October 7, 2006 we got ready to go to the wedding and she started to have cramps. She wasn't feeling good and I told her that we didn't have to go, but she kept insisting on it. She had already gotten her daughter dressed and wanted to really go and get her mind off the surgery that she had.

We told this woman from my job that we would pick her up, too. First we had to make a few stops. Well after a while it was taking too darn long to get to the ladies house. So I told her to go on without us and she made a big thing about not wanting people to know that her van was messed up. I don't think anyone would have cared. I did tell her that I was sorry and we would be there soon.

My friend started cramping more and was in serious pain. I asked if she wanted me to drive and we switched places. I could tell that moving was unbearable for her. So I drove her to the hospital and they rushed her back to the back for examination because of the fact that it was so urgent.

Her boyfriend showed up and helped me take care of her daughter, but he was still an ass. While she was in the back in pain he was outside two waying other girls. I think she should get rid of him, but she cries and says that she loves him.

She was suppose to stay in the opposite over night, but didn't have anyone to watch her daughter. I couldn't do it because her little girl is the first person to get my cat to hiss and growl and my family isn't into little kids. She didn't want to ask her parents because they would have bitched. Not once did he offer to stay up there with her. I was disappointed at that.

She left the hospital after they gave her some pain meds and she's suppose to have the surgery again on monday. When the doctors did the surgery the first time they didn't get all of the baby out of her and so that was causing her more pain.

I'm sad that she's sick and I feel bad because I missed a friends wedding. It was something that I had wanted to do for a while. No matter what I would have still stayed at the hospital with one of my best friends. I know she would do the same for me.

I have decided to go back to college after putting it off for 2,000 years. I figured that I should graduate someday hehe. Being at my job and realizing that I don't want to be there for 25 years like some folks has got me moving. I don't want to get too comfortable there and just let life past me by.

Some people have moved around the bank while others have stayed in the same department that long. I just cannot do that. I'll have been there a year on September 19th. That's if I don't get the boot because they're changing a lot of things around there.

**crosses fingers* As much as I dislike my job I don't want to get fired. Getting fired truly sucks ass and looks really bad on a resume.

Okay, this is about going back to school and I'm doing that. I need more out of life than the same routine every freaking day. Sounds odd to say, but maybe I'll get to know people that are into the same things as me. I'm not looking for a boyfriend or anything, but just people that dont' want to do the same stuff all the time.

Going to clubs and drinking, drinking, drinking are not the things for me. I want to go to jazz clubs and listen to the performers, go to the museum of art and look at the beautiful exhibits, and do other things. All my friends want to do are go out to dinner and to the movies or go to a club and drink. I don't like dancing at clubs because it's not dancing...It's humping on the dance floor and NO THANK YOU!!

I hope that everyone has an excellent week. Please don't let anyone get you down. Keep your heads up and remember that killing someone that ticks you off will only put you in a cell with some person bigger than you and YOU DO NOT WANT TO BE THERE BITCH FOR THE NEXT 30 TO LIFE!!!

*hugs*

I work with a bunch a jerks. It's always take take take and no giving. The majority of them tick me off.

They ask for a small favor and then take advantage of my kindness. I help them out, but when I get behind in work no one helps me. On friday I was seriously pissed at the Tech guy because he had me rush and do some stuff so that he could get out of there, but the problem is that he didn't tell me that the sytem was going to be down. How in the world am I suppose to finish up my work when I don't have a computer??!!! For pete's sake it's a bank!!!

I asked him when things would be back up and he's like " In an hour or two."

That ticked me off even more because I had to have all my work finished and downstairs by 5:45pm and it was 5:10pm.

Another reason they're inconsiderate bastards is because they failed to call another girl and tell her not to come up to work until later because the systems were down. She was showing up as I was leaving and I told her about the situation and she was truly ticked off.

It takes her a good 30 minutes to drive to work. She was not too happy about having to wait around for the system to boot itself back up again. A supervisor should have called her and told her to be there at 7pm instead of 6:30pm. Needless to say the work wasn't done the way it was suppose to be done and she dropped it off on a supervisors desk. I don't blame her for that.

On monday I will be loaded down with so much work because I was too nice last week. Spent most of my time helping others and my work is behind. I'm clocking in early tomorrow. If anyone says anything to me I'll be more than happy to give the extra work to them. At that point they will not care if I'm early or not.

I just feel so overwhelmed right now. I need a seriously long vacation.